Pathway 方向感 Mandarin Chinese Christian Fellowship MCCF 的過去、現在、及未來
詩人大衛的禱告： “神啊，求你為我造清潔的 心，使我裡面重新有正直的 靈。不要丟棄我，使我離開 你的面；不要從我收回你的 聖靈。” “Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.” Psalms 51:10-11
Inside this issue: Embarking On a New Journey
When Samuel meets Mary…
Plans? Future? Just Go and Discover!
Mourning into Dancing
Brought Back Down
A New Beginning
by Christine Sun
到：“MCCF 到底是一個什麼樣 的團體。” MCCF(Mandarin Chinese Christian Fellowship)是 隸屬於 CCF(Chinese Christian Fellowship)的一個組織，並且 以中文為我們的主要語言。但 除此之外，這團體還有什麼特 別的地方? MCCF 其實是一個很特別的 團契，不只是因為裡面有帥 哥、美女、才子、才女或是每 週的精采節目以及豐富獎品。 它特別的地方在於神的愛及恩 典大大的彰顯在這團契的每個 地方。 這個團契是從一個夢想而誕 生的。在 2001 的冬季學期，當 時 CCF 的主席 Kevin Leung 對 於 Waterloo 校園到處走動的中 國人開始有了一份感動。那時 在滑鐵盧校園內還沒有說中文
响下，我开始有一种寻求真理 的强烈意愿。尽管，这段日子 我内心充满了困惑。选择学 业，规划未来的计划，以及同 过去的信念与旧我征战。但我 的内心感到有一种强烈的 support。我渐渐趋于平静，常 常有喜悦的感觉。 很快，我决了志，在我第一次 上教会的 16 年以后。 我知道这只是属灵征战的 开始。之后，我也遭遇了许多 挣扎和试探。期间，我经历了 一段感情的终结，考试的失败 以及其他的一些事情。同时， 因为愈发看到自己的不完美甚 至罪的本性而愈发感到痛苦。 常常感到内心有两个自我在战 斗。如同陷于舞台角色无法自 拔的演员，有种分裂的感觉。 也如同正玄函数，信心在起 伏，有时处于峰值，有时处于 谷底。当我从中国过完春节再 次回到加拿大的时候，我已感 到精疲力尽。 然而神总是在看顾着他的 孩子。当我再次趋于平静，能 在神的爱中静思的时候，许多 困惑豁然开朗。 之后，感到自己在慢慢地蜕 变。不再沉沦于过去的回忆， 不再所谓地”无可奈何花落去 “。不再埋怨，相信神总会有 其安排，尝试着用一颗快乐的 心去面对困难。也学着如何真 正地爱身边的人，be more responsible,如何宽恕一些 人，even if it is not easy and takes time.
I came to Canada because I want to have a whole new life. Actually, I did and do. 在我成长的历程中， fellowship 和 church 起着非 常重要的作用。因为单靠我薄 弱的意志，是不堪一击的。来 Waterloo 之前，我很担心无法 找到一个适合的 fellowship。 我祈求上帝。He did.非常感 谢 MCCF 和活泉国语青年团契。 Especially MCCF Bible Study Section, 它使我意识到学习 Bible（不仅仅是泛读 Bible） 的重要性。 我知道我的信仰历程刚刚 启程。我依然常常有软弱， depressed 的时候，信靠顺 服，活在神的国度里是何等的 喜悦。
he name Jesus derives from "Joshua", which implies the savior. The word Messiah and Christ both mean the Anointed One. Jesus Christ literally means the Anointed Savior. Have you ever wondered who physically anointed Jesus? Before answering that question, let us look at the significance of anointing for Jewish. First, it is not a light matter for Jews to anoint. In fact, only three kinds of people can be anointed: priest, prophet and king. In term of qualification, Jesus is indeed the High Priest, the Prophet and the King of kings. Second, the anointer needs to receive authority and often revelation from God to validate to anoint. Among the famous anointers,
there are Moses, Samuel and Elijah. Coming back to the question, who anointed Jesus? Shockingly, it was Mary, sister of Lazarus.
Then Mary took about a pint of pure nard, an expensive perfume; she poured it on Jesus' feet and wiped his feet with her hair. And the house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume .
They took palm branches and went out to meet him, shouting, Hosanna!? Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord! Blessed is the King of Israel!
"When she poured this perfume on my body, she did it to prepare me for burial. I tell you the truth, wherever this gospel is preached throughout the world, what she has done will also be told, in memory of her. Between the anointing of Jesus  and the triumphal entry of Jerusalem  , there
“They took palm branches and went out to meet him, shouting, Hosanna!? Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord! Blessed is the King of Israel!”
are only few verses apart. The strong correlation between the two events is a shock for me. Jesus was called the King of Israel by the crowd after being anointed by Mary. Is the sequence a pure coincidence or is John trying to tell us something? How can a simple woman anoint the King of Israel? Was she worthy to do so?
Scripture Reference:  John 12:3  John 12:13  Matthew 26:12-13  1 Samuel 16:6-13  Acts 13:22  Luke 10:42
In addition, Jesus claimed that Mary's action will be told throughout the world along with the gospel. Putting this expensive perfume on Jesus is surely worthwhile, but I have always been puzzled by Jesus' claim. Is this gesture worth to be preached throughout the world as the gospel? Is this gesture so significant that it must be preached throughout the world? However, if this gesture is to anoint Jesus to be the High Priest, the Prophet and the King of kings, it is definitely as important as the baptism of Jesus. Why Samuel has to meet Mary (as indicated by the title)? The simple answer is that Samuel has also anointed an important person, King David. In 1 Samuel 16, Samuel went to the house of Jesse as LORD has commanded. Dramatically, the sons of Jesse went one by one in front of Samuel and have their auditions.
When they arrived, Samuel saw Eliab and thought, "Surely the LORD's anointed stands here before the LORD." But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart." Then Jesse called Abinadab and had him pass in front of
Samuel. But Samuel said, "The LORD has not chosen this one either." Jesse then had Shammah pass by, but Samuel said, "Nor has the LORD chosen this one." Jesse had seven of his sons pass before Samuel, but Samuel said to him, "The LORD has not chosen these." 11 So he asked Jesse, "Are these all the sons you have?" "There is still the youngest," Jesse answered, "but he is tending the sheep." Samuel said, "Send for him; we will not sit down until he arrives." So he sent and had him brought in. He was ruddy, with a fine appearance and handsome features. Then the LORD said, "Rise and anoint him; he is the one." So Samuel took the horn of oil and anointed him in the presence of his brothers, and from that day on the Spirit of the LORD came upon David in power. Samuel then went to Ramah .
This famous passage tells us a great truth about how God looks at our hearts. When God looked into David's heart, He found out that it is pure and single-minded. We often tend to look at the outward appearance like Samuel and the disciples. The disciples started to criticize Mary for her gesture. It is obvious now that the anointing is worth the price of that expensive perfume. When we focus on the outward appearance, we will never be able to give a wise price quotation.
After removing Saul, he made David their king. He testified concerning him: have found David son of Jesse a man after my own heart; he will do everything I want him to do.?
(Jesus said) "...but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.?
God haven chosen David and Mary simply because they chose wisely. They chose to go after God's heart and God's will. In our eyes, Mary has not accomplished nearly as much as David or Samuel. However, her "one year of salary" of investment was worthwhile.
Writing this text has brought me to reflect much ?
Where have I been pouring out my perfume ? Where have I been investing my time and my energy ? Am I invest my time and energy to myself?
Or am I investing to bring glory to the King of kings?
"Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.?
What are you choosing now?
Plans? Future? Just Go and Discover! By Jackson Lee
Jeremiah 29 : 11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Before coming to India, I spent lots of time wrestling and asking myself what am I going to do after school? Where does God want me to go? I was searching for God’s calling. Was it grad school, work or mission? I was so confused and afraid of making the wrong choice. God did not call me to be a pastor nor a full-time missionary. He simply told me “just go”. And coming to India was one of the best decisions I made in my life. I was very scared when I first arrived. I thought I was going to be very sick and not able to make it. One the day of arrival, I was bothered by a headache. On the second day, I suffered from a stomach problem. Thank God, I am still alive; not just alive, but I can say I truly live. The work here is so rewarding, and I am so glad that there is a purpose in all the schoolings I received. Previously I had had six good co-op work terms, but my experience here surpasses them all. My office director step-by-step taught me engineering designs. And now I am actually using engineering skills that will directly benefit many. It’s so exciting to work and see my design being used for His Kingdom. My work is no longer confined in the 9-to-5 timeslot, but it starts from the time I get up until the time I go to bed. Even though I don’t get paid for being here, often I feel compelled by the Spirit to work overtime.
Besides working in the office, occasionally I travel with brothers and sisters to different cities. We often see homeless children begging. I was very disturbed at first. So I tried to be unsympathetic to beggars; knowing if I give any money, this would attract a swarm. One day, a sister taught me a great lesson – “Don’t just give money to people in order to make them go away.” When two little boys approached us and wanted to shine our shoes, she plainly told them that she has no money. But she treated them with dignity and conversed with them. She asked for their names and taught them a few English words so that they would be able to use those words with future clients. The boys left us without receiving any rupee, but they left filled with joy and selfrespect. Everyday, God is teaching me something new. He constantly reminds me that he has great plans for me; all I have to do is “go” and “discover”. How about you? What are you doing this summer? What are you doing after school? Perhaps all you
need to do is “go” and “discover” His plan that will impact your life and lives of those around you. Isaiah 55 : 2-5, “Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labour on what does not satisfy? Listen to me, and eat what is good, and your soul will delight in the richest of fare. Give ear and come to me; hear me, that your soul may live. I will make an everlasting covenant with you, my faithful love promised to David. See, I have made him a witness to the peoples, a leader and commander of the peoples. Surely you will summon nations you know not, and nations that do not know you will hasten to you, because of the Lord Your God, the Holy One of Israel, for he has endowed you with splendour.” p.s. Thank you for your supports and prayers, in Christ.
Mourning into Dancing by Lisa Hung
When I first found out that I
“Then maidens will dance and be glad, young men and old as well. I will turn their mourning into gladness; I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow.” Jeremiah 31:13
would be studying at the University of Waterloo, I was overwhelmingly excited. After months of struggle and prayer for the revelation of God’s will in my life, it seemed that finally God had answered in a most faithful and amazing way. I felt confident that He was leading me to move from my home in Manitoba to study Optometry at the University of Waterloo. As such, I was excited for all of the wonderful things that would surely lie ahead, and when asked by people, I would often sincerely declare that the thing which most excited me were the relationships that I looked forward to building with my new classmates. Little did I know that one of the most trying times of my life lay just ahead of me. Academically, my first semester at the University of Waterloo was the most humbling semester of my life. There were times when I did not know if I would make it through. By the end, I gave it my all, but can testify that my all was still not enough. However, just as Jesus took the little boy’s lunch, two fish and five loaves, into his hands and multiplied it so that it would be in abundance to feed over five thousand people, so I surrendered what little intellect and might I had into God’s hands and He multiplied the result in abundance. All I could do was stand back in shock and amazement at the outcome, just as the disciples had done after Jesus performed the miracle of the feeding of five thousand. Later on, many of my classmates shared with me that they went home in tears each night during the first semester from the loneliness, fear, and pressure of our academic program.
In addition to my academic struggles, I grew exceedingly recluse. I missed home intensely and had no desire to put an effort into making new friends. I found my own behaviour to be confusing, for I have always been someone that welcomes, enjoys, and even longs for companionship. I even came to a point where I felt strangely guilty for building new relationships, as though that would somehow take away from the wonderful relationships that I had with people at home in Winnipeg. I realized, even at the time, that my thinking was backwards and that this did not make sense, yet I could not help it. I now recognize that, in a way, I was in a state of mourning. I mourned for lost time with my family, for the ending of a lovely chapter in my life, for the altered state of my relationship with many friends, for proximity with my church family. Just before arriving in Waterloo, it had seemed that all of the relationships in my life were just coming to a place where I longed for them to be. My Sunday school students and I were just beginning to arrive at a place of trust with each other, and I enjoyed an irreplaceable emotional intimacy with friends that promised to ripen into something beautiful. The loss of all those things and expectations tore me up inside more than I had realized. I felt like one who had cultivated a garden with perseverance only to have a storm hit the night before harvest robbing me of the chance to taste the fruits that I had long laboured over and seen grow by the grace of God. I was also frustrated by my lack of gratitude for the opportunity to study at Waterloo. Prior to this time, I had called out to the Lord to deliver me to a place where I could fulfill His
will for my life, and yet after it seemed as though that had happened, I only met Him with grumbling words. I was no different from the Israelites who were delivered from bondage in Egypt only to complain to the Lord in the dessert that they were better off before He had answered their prayers. Spiritually, my life became dry. I had no desire to pray, though I would still usually go through the actions or be compelled by fear at times. I dragged my eyes across the pages of my Bible, but they produced no result in my heart. I became so caught up with the hundred and one things that needed to get done in a day and lost sight of what was truly important. Yet even through all of this, the Lord was exceedingly faithful. “If we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot disown himself.” 2Timothy 2:13. Blessed be the name of the Lord! One night shortly after Christmas I wrote a letter to a friend in which I documented my poor spiritual condition. I recalled a verse that had been shared during church service a few weeks prior to this time. “Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first.” Revelations 2:5. I realized that I had fallen from where I used to be with God, and I began to think of what it was that I used to do that was so different. I remembered that there was a time when I used to think about God all day long. I would delight in His word and long to speak to Him, somehow that had all stopped and I had not even realized it. Strangely and wonderfully, after I had completed the letter I was writing to my friend I went to read my devotions that applied to my situation so strongly that it was as though someone had pasted
a portion of the letter I wrote into Oswald Chambers book My Utmost for His Highest. The last paragraph of the devotion read, “If, as I recall what God remembers about me, I find He is not what He used to be to me, let it produce shame and humiliation, because that shame will bring the godly sorrow that works repentance.” That entire week, I began to pray differently. I awoke each morning and went to bed each night with the joy of the Lord. I became so grateful for all that God had provided for me and
realized that I needed to live in the present. At any given time, I had either been living in the past because I missed home so much or living in the future because I was so concerned about getting everything done on time. As C.S. Lewis put it, Satan tries to prevent us from living in the present, but always strives to have us live in either the past or the future, because he does not want us to realize that the present is the only place where we can make an impact for eternity. How could I be a light to those around me if all I could do was grieve and sulk? Closely
after this new revelation, the daily things that I needed were provided to me in the most miraculous ways of which I could not help but document in a running journal. The journal of miraculous things grew full to the margins. Since then, more than one classmate has commented to me in a positive light that it is as though I have become a different person from when they first met me at the beginning of the year. My only response is that God is so gracious and compassionate…for He has turned my mourning into dancing.
me that I was getting too arrogant for my own good and I should have taken something like the G examination more seriously.
“Sigh..... This is hard for me to say, but this man has broken my will. I'm crying that I'm still in his class. Help.”
Brought Back Down by Feng Cao
know that I’m writing this article a little ahead of time, but I feel really personally inspired right now. Most of you probably do not know about this, but I was a total wreck during the exam time. I had 5 exams in the first two weeks, and they came at me like an avalanche coming down from a mountain. After most of my exams, I felt a sense of relief after completing them. However, there was one exam that just haunted me for days and days afterwards. Back in the first year, I was probably the most arrogant person you will find on campus. I seriously thought that I was too smart for the world. It’s amazing how God has brought me back down to Earth since that point. I remember when I was taking my G driving exam. I was feeling incredibly confident going in; because I thought that I was too experienced to fail. In the end, I did pass the exam, but I barely passed it. At that moment, I felt God was telling
Many people would find that I tend to take examinations and school works a little too lightly in general. It’s true, I generally do not work all that hard or at least as hard as I should for my exams and school work. I often say to people around me “Don’t worry about it, the exam is not for another 3 weeks, why are you starting to study already?” This time around, I was more serious about my final. I actually spent many days during the exam time at my friend’s place studying with him. Even so, my performances in most of my exams were disappointing. Finally, I was hit with CS445, also known as Software Requirement Specifications. To understand my feelings before I went into the exam, you only need to read my quote about the professor of that course on www.ratemyprofessors.ca
Even so, I was actually doing fairly well in the class when I went into the exam. Thanks to a really nice TA, we were given a very high (probably undeservingly so) mark for the major course project. On the exam day, I was not feeling very well, because I really did not get enough sleep for this morning exam. Just before exam started, the professor came in and said that you can “purchase” for the right answers in the middle of the exam. I was thinking “what’s going on here?” He explained that many questions depend on solutions from questions beforehand. “Purchase” simply refers to exchanging your answer with the official solution, so you can use it to work on following questions. I made the mistake of making the exchange too early in the process. As soon as I saw the official
answer for the question, I felt really terrible inside, because my answers were completely different from the official answers. I think I really let that affect me. I felt totally horrible after I came out of the exam room. I sang on Karaoke Revolution 3 for a while, but I was still feeling the dread. Then, I found out from the friend that I study with that I would fail the course if I failed the final exam. As soon as I heard that, I was in a total frame of shock. I did not actually believe that I was going to fail, but I was feeling really afraid. I estimated my mark to be between 58 and 73 for the final. I reasoned that the low bound was too close to 50, so I spent the next few days dwelling on this exam. I was so afraid of failing at that point. Heck, I would have taken a 50 in a heartbeat. Now, I feel sorry for my study partner, because he must have been sick of listening to me complaining about the course and the professor. I would go through the entire exam and estimate marks that I would get for each section and try to make myself feel better that way. However, I still could do nothing but thinking about
the exam. I also prayed like crazy. Before, I always prayed to do really well, but this time I just prayed for a 50. I would pray at least 3 times a day about this one exam. I would say to God something like “Lord, I never felt like this before. I know this a selfish prayer, but I cannot help it. I really don’t know what would happen if I fail. I don’t know how I would be able to tell my parents about it.” Even when I was having fun with my friends, I still could not help but think about this exam.
euphoria at that time. I thought to myself “Thank God for this early Christmas present”. Even now, I cannot help but smile. It feels like that G driving test. I felt vulnerable, but I successfully passed the test in the end. I seemed to receive many warnings from God, but still kept on being lazy. I always said that I needed a motivation to study. I think that God has shown the motivating factor that was in front of me the entire time.
The torture finally ended this morning. I came home last night and sent an email to my professor to ask how I did on the exam (the exams are just over, so we are allowed to do so). I woke up as early as I can this morning to check my emails and I saw a reply email from him. Of course, I prayed before I opened up the email. The first thing I saw was the number 50, and then another number 34.78. I was like there is no way I got 34% on this exam. As it turned out, I got 34.78/50 for the exam and 79 for the course. I felt complete
Judge Not, Lest Ye Be Judged Part 2 by Feng Cao
Before I begin, I’d first like to say that this is the second part to my article from last term. In fact, I have fallen into the same trap that I talked about in my article last term. For those people that know me, most of you probably know that I have way too many opinions (many of them do not even
make sense). At the same time, I have this irrepressible urge to express my opinion wherever I go. In the past year, I would often argue with people on online forums about abortion and same-sex marriage. I always felt it was my duty to defend the views of Christianity. At the same time, I always thought that I had all these great morals and need to express them. I sometimes got so
excited about voicing my opinions to such matters that I do not even care about my school work anymore. The other day, I was talking to a friend that I have not talked to for a while. (Note: Please do not make any guesses about who this person is, because you probably do not know her) In my weirdly charming way (don’t laugh), I asked her what she
has been doing lately. I used to see her on MSN all the time, but I have not seen her much on there recently. She just said to me that it has been a really tough term for her. We have always been really good friends, so I just asked her what has happened recently. She told me that she was pregnant for a while. She said that she just kept on throwing up, and could not do any of her exams. So I asked her what she decided to do. She told me that she had an abortion, because she is incapable of handling a child at this point. When I heard this, I started to go into my righteous mode. I asked her “what about the baby? You screwed up. The baby shouldn’t have to pay for it.” She said to me “I’m prochoice, and believe that a woman’s body is that woman’s body.” This is when I normally really get hyped. I started to press on, because I’m obviously not a proponent of abortion. She started to cry, and said “I really do not want to have this discussion right now.” At that time, I felt spiritually naked. For all of my selfrighteous views, those views could not cover up the donkey that I am. To say that I had lifechanging experience would be an over statement. However, a
part of me definitely did not feel the same. We were both quiet for a while. I was very angry at myself for not being able to support a friend in need. I thought to myself, “Feng, you really did it this time. You have managed to make the Pharisees look good.” Isn’t that what the Pharisees do? They walk around with a self-righteous view. At the same time, they can do nothing but putting judgments on people around them. It was at that time that I remembered the article I wrote last term. The phrase “Judge not lest ye be judged” still rings deeply in my mind. It was almost like an alarm just went off. As Jesus said “Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.” Did I not just write that St. Augustine of Hipo told us to follow Jesus’s way in our living, but not get tied up by the world around us? I was the hypocrite, and have always been the hypocrite.
Maybe, this one lesson will make me less of a hypocrite in the future. I started to re-examine my views at that moment. I started to think that if God can still love all of us through all of our trials and tribulations, why I cannot just accept other people’s decisions. I cannot see into the situation of each person. It’s not up to me to judge what they did is right or wrong. I know that God will. My job is to still love my neighbours and pray for them, even if they do something that I do not agree with. No, I do not believe that homosexuality or abortion is right, but it’s not up to me to limit others from making these decisions. That is why I have now become pro-choice on abortion and more on the fence about same-sex marriage.
A New Beginning asking for a new sheet of paper to start again; and in the second part, as a parallel to the first, the poet described herself, or maybe all of us, going up to God’s throne when we have failed and asking God for a chance to start again. It is such a beautiful and moving piece of poetry that, in a very elegant and simple way, describes the whole concept of salvation.
Beginning Anew He came to my desk with quivering lip; The lesson was done. “Have you a new leaf for me, dear Teacher? I have spoiled this one!” I took his leaf, all soiled and blotted, And gave him a new one, all unspotted; Then into his tired heart I smiled: “Do better now, my child!”
I went to the throne with trembling heart; The day was done. “Have you a new day for me, dear Master!” He took my day all soiled and blotted, And gave me a new one, all unspotted; Then into my tired heart He smiled: “Do better now, my child!”
-- Kathleen Wheeler
by Wayne Kuo
During one of the prayer meetings around midterm, many of us shared how at the beginning of the term we set a lot goals and that we only met a few of them at the time. We prayed for each other and encouraged each other to do better. And at that moment, this poem by Kathleen Wheeler came to my mind.
What is salvation, but a chance to start anew? When we have failed in our lives, when we have done things wrong, when we have mistreated people, or when we have fallen short of God’s glory, who else can we turn to but Jesus to get a clean sheet of paper to start again? And it just pains my heart when I try to think about the price Jesus had to pay when he said “Do better now, my child!”